I JUST WANNA BE THIN.

If my mother didn’t even give birth to me in the first place, maybe others would lead a happier life. Especially my family.

I swear I’ll do anything to protect my family. ANYTHING.

Usually when people criticize me, calling fat etc, I don’t really care. But today, someone called me fat, & it seriously struck me. I’ve gained weight, I know. Yesterday, I saw a picture of my full length body that was taken last year, and I looked at my legs. They were so thin. Now, when I look in the mirror, I feel like crying. It’s so difficult to go shopping when you’re fat. I used to like shopping a lot, I could wear whatever I want. I needn’t worry about exposing my arms or legs. But I just can’t stop eating. I hate myself. I can’t even get myself to look at my reflection. Wish I never even existed.

I wish I was dead. It’s not like anyone would care anyway.

Just shut the fuck up will you. Why do you have to annoy me every fucking day? Does it make you happy when you see me pissed? If not, just stop it. I’m already going through so much shit everyday so please stop making things worse. -.-